Let’s agree to use the word “god” as a shorthand. I don’t mean it as a shorthand for the ever-fashionably non-committal “whatever god you want to believe in”. Not at all. I mean it specifically as a shorthand for “Kathryn’s somewhat bizarre and magical experience of a high reality which works awesomely and she doesn’t […]
You kill it, you eat it
That last post reminded me of a story. When my brother’s daughter was maybe 5 or 6, they found an injured squirrel in the yard, struggling and slowly dying. Seeing the opportunity for a teaching moment, he brought his daughter over and explained to her that the squirrel was in bad shape and that it […]
Save Schrodinger’s Cat
Let’s call it “Experiential Quantum Superposition”. I hypothesize that the truest stories have no endings. These stories fizzle messily into the unknown, forcing us to accept all the many layers of complex and sometimes conflicting truth in one big chaotic soup. These loose ends make us uncomfortable, take away clear targets for assigning blame, and […]
Give up early. Give up often.
I believe in quitting. I am a devout quitter. Because every act of quitting is the powerful act of choosing something else. Life is unconsumably large. In our time here, we select a tiny subset of all that we could experience and we must, by design, leave the rest. And much of what we leave […]
Healing yourself with a can of gasoline and a book of matches
Do not underestimate the power of rock bottom. Rock bottom is where everything becomes possible. And while none of us needs to visit there more than once or twice in a lifetime, when it’s your turn, just let go and stop trying to save yourself. Race down as fast as you can. We all have […]
I went into the bathroom to brush my teeth…
…and I don’t know what happened, but suddenly I realized I had been standing there practicing the robot for like five minutes. I don’t remember deciding to practice the robot. I don’t remember starting the robot. It was like blacking out and waking up doing the robot naked in my bathroom. I wasn’t doing it […]
Stop drinking now or you are going to get cancer and die slowly and alone, probably ugly crying.
There is a different life than the one your wine-sipping, margarita Tuesday, beer-with-the-guys self is currently living, hiding just on the flip side of your current reality. And it’s different, harder, and better. Here’s why. Many people in your life are not as interesting as you want to believe they are. This sounds like a […]
A 25 year scavenger hunt for love, through a forest of sex and acceptance
I lost count of my partners when my numbers passed my age in my early 20’s. After 3 cancelled engagements by age 22 and sincere, heartfelt efforts at trying to be a good mate, it was clear I didn’t have the chips to play the poker game of love, with myself or with another person. […]
Tao – 8
…Live in a good place. Keep your mind deep. Treat others well. Stand by your word. Keep good order. Do the right thing. Work when it’s time…
Tao – 5 Heaven and Earth are not kind
The ten thousand things are straw dogs to them. Sages are not kind: People are straw dogs to them. Yet Heaven and Earth and all the space between Are like a bellows: Empty but inexhaustible, Always producing more. Longwinded speech is exhausting Better to stay centered.